Well, that sucks.

Oh, how quickly things can change.

 If you had asked me  two weeks ago what I would be doing late on this Tuesday afternoon, the last thing that I would have told you would be searching for a new job. I was "let go" from BambooHR a little less than a week ago.

While there were a lot of little things with perfect (or not so perfect) timing that played into this event, the ultimate problem was that I had an extremely bad bout of depression blindside me. My performance at work dropped in just a of couple weeks to less than half of what it had been previously. I could hardly get myself out of bed in the morning, let alone give 100% at work. Unfortunately, at this time, I got a new manager who had only seen poor performance from me.

I am trying not to dwell on the "what ifs" of this situation and I am definitely working on understanding my previous employer's decisions. This has been a very difficult trial; I loved my job and I saw myself working at BambooHR for years. It feels as though a lot of the plans that Preston and I had made relied on my employment at such a great company. We've looked into a few other employment options and I believe we have made a decision, but we are disappointed to say the least.

We have found much to be grateful for, though. The old saying "at least you have your health" is applicable here. We are both healthy! At least this trial is one that we can somewhat easily overcome. We are blessed to have just the two of us in our family and we are blessed that Preston is out of school so that we can both work.

I have been so thankful for all of my fantastic friends and family who have reached out to us this past week. We have felt very loved and taken care of. There are too many people to count who have helped me feel comforted and like I am not a complete loser.

In short, we are still kind of reeling from this change in our lives. We're very happy to have each other. I'm so thankful for Preston and his support. He has been my crutch the last few weeks and has loved me regardless of what demons I may be facing. I could not face each day without him by my side.